shift happens…

I had my biannual appointment with my neurologist today.  For 21 years I’ve been living with this body that has multiple sclerosis in it.     Some days MS is the best thing that ever happened to me.  Some days it’s not.

Today it’s not.

Today my doc and I discussed the possibility of some new meds on the market.  The one that might help me most involves significant heart monitoring because this drug can result in heart attacks.  HELLO?

When I got home from the appointment, I researched the drug even more and was glad I said, ‘no thanks’.

So now I’m sitting here with the realization that although SO MUCH is happening in the War Against MS, I (and so many others)  still have many battles to face.

And that’s where the shift happens.

My life is GREAT.

Am I disappointed with how some parts of it are playing out?  Sure!

Would I trade the lessons  MS has taught me for anything?  NO!

So for now, I’m going to take a nap, get up and move on.  That’s what makes the most sense to me.

How do you balance fear of the UnKnown with accepting What Is?